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How come I feel like this?? It should not happen again. Why is this keep happening? What is the lesson that it want me to pass? and WHY the hell on earth she wouldn't understand? I have never felt this sick of myself and all the things that keep hitting on me. I have never felt like I want to jump off the bridge, cut myself, or drive so fast and hit the tree. WTF???!!!!

It hurts like hell again, and I don't even know how to describe this shit!! She just doesn't get it, does she?   ..................................................................

I AM AT THE POINT WHERE I DO NOT WANT TO GIVE THE FUCK ABOUT THIS ANYMORE!!!!!

IF only I could end this life...

IF only my heart would stop beating....

IF only I could shut everything off......

IF only I don't have to give the SHIT about it.....

IF only I just stop trying....

I WOULD NOT BE IN THIS FUCKING PAIN!!!!